I just realized something today when I was coming back home from the bar (it's 11pm at the moment). Usually people who learn how to lucid dream desire something from these dreams. They want to do something they can't or are not allowed to do in real life. They have something on their mind they want.
What do I want?
My life is already really boring and dull and to be totally honest... I don't desire for anything huge and amazing. I just wish to get job, earn enough to live normal life, hangout with friends, occasionally get drunk.. But these are all things I can achieve in real life. I don't have any unrealistic or elusive desires, heck, I don't even care to have partner in future so... as you can guess I don't even have strong sexual or romantic needs.
I know, I might sound like the most boring person ever. But if some night, I finally realize "oh shit I'm dreaming", I honestly don't know what would I do first. Start to fly and go to space? Become a pirate because why not? Become a president of the country and have farm of flamingos?
Okay.... I start to babble and I didn't even drink that much. This was just something that crossed my mind. Maybe I'm just frustrated 'cause nothing is happening. Job searching or neither my lucid dream hobby is going nowhere. And... I guess this is my blog. I can write what I want. I have just never done something like this on the internet, so I'm still getting used to everything.
Actually, now when thinking again... Maybe what I want from my possible future lucid dreams could be exactly the nonsense I listed before. I want adventures, I want to see new places, I want... Something exciting. Anything new. Anything that could make my dull boring life much more interesting.
I will keep going with this. I will not give up. I'm really tired of those black and white dreams. And of my normal everyday life. For now on, my second goal within lucid dreaming is to find something that will make me excited, that will make my life interesting again.