So...big news everyone. Two things atually, I guess. After over four months of studying I was finally able to lucid dream last night. Learning to remember the flying dream mark didn't go to waste. Why I'm not as excited as I should be? Well...this dream didn't last for long.
But I will still explain everything in detail as possible. It was generic setting, I was on bus stop, waiting for next ride to arrive. Some odd looking butterfly flew past me. I wouldn't usually care about some weird looking bug, but this time it was important. It was my dream mark and it reminded me of flying. Suddenly the realization came to me. I was in the dream.
I felt overwhelming amazing satisfaction. I had finally done it! So the really first thing without breaking the magic of my achievement was to jump. I first hovered little bit, just enough that my feet didn't touch the ground, before I leaped even more up on the air. Other people on the bus stop didn't even seem to notice, but I didn't even care and so they and everything started to vanish when I flew higher and higher on the sky.
It didn't even take long before I was all above the atmosphere and in space. Earth was under me and black space around me. But something else too, within something that made me even more excited.
Colors. I was finally able to see colors in my dream! The space was filled with blinking starts and different sized ball shaped planets. They were pretty close to the Earth, but not in the apocalyptic or even concerning way, but just there. And colors of them... They were so beautiful, the colors were vibrant and so eyecathing and I just loved it all! Even now it suprises me what my mind could be capable to do if I just give it a chance. Maybe I really do underestimate my imagination.
Anyway, I wasn't even changing anything on that moment, I was too focused on my surroundings. Until I noticed her.
This first ever odd dream character of mine fitted well with the space enviroment. And its character strugture was really odd one. It was like a centaur but completely bear. I mean the centaur-lowerbody was brown bear, upperbody was female's and face and head were again bear's. On upperbody she was wearing some kind of tight suit that fitted well with surrounding space and looked like it had its own universe inside it. She had long black scarf around her neck, and when I said she fitted on space well was not only the universe reflecting suit, but she was also wearing astronaut helmet (even it was more like just a class dome).
While I was studying her appearence, I slowly noticed that she was staring at me. Look on her face suprised me to be honest. She looked at me judgmentally. Really seriously, like I was a criminal or something. I kept looking back at her and decided that I wanted to change look on her face to more welcoming. But... I couldn't do it. For a moment I became afraid that lucid dreaming was over and I had lost control. I was going to do reality test to myself, but before I could she spoke (yes, I still remember word to word what she said):
"You should not be here."
This suprised me even more but didn't discourage me. Even I didn't do reality test on that moment like I had planned, I quickly told myself that I still could have a control, I was just not able to change her for some reason. I smiled for this odd creature and asked if she wanted me to change color of certain planet that still surrounded us.
But before I could say or do more, she grabbed my hand and looked at me very seriously, like she was an kindergarten teacher who was gonna discibline a bad behaving child.
"I mean it. You have to leave. This is not safe place for someone like you."
And then I was on my bed. I made reality test to see if I had just transferred to new dream that started from my bedroom but nope. I was wide awake.
So there. I am to say the least frustrated. Sorry, I'm not sure right now how to end this entry. I guess I update next time I lucid dream. Hopefully it's going to happen tonight without odd unexpected surprises. I need coffee.